I honestly never expected to meet anyone like Dominic. First meeting him, I mistook his quiet confidence for arrogance, because I had never met (any guy) with such a controlled presence--and this piqued my interest in him as a person. Coming out a very serious relationship, I fought myself to not fall into the trap of romantic attachment, but to get to know him as a person....to pursue a genuine friendship. It didn't work though. I had a very real attraction to this man. Quite honestly, no matter what you may think, there is NOTHING you can do to control the nature of attraction. I think that it helped that I was pursuing other male options, and was involved in other male romantic situations because it kind of kept my energy balanced out in a way. I wasn't (initially) looking for Dominic to fill romantic voids, but after establishing a genuine friendship with him, I was smitten. I was ready to cut all my other male "boo-skis" completely off! I almost felt that I betrayed some code, because I wasn't supposed to like him! I had forced myself not to "like" him! Besides, he had too much female energy constantly being directed at him at work, and I wasn't interested in being a member of his fan club--at all!
Looking back in retrospect at the course of our relationship (which is FAR from perfect) I can only say that the road to commitment was one that was really unforeseen. I enacted no intentional strategies to make him fall in love with me, nor he I. Our relationship began with a genuine friendship with no expectations.....I didn't know WHAT to expect and that was the adventure that made finding a maturing love relationship with Dominic so exciting. Finding love meant letting go of fear. The fear of not knowing. Finding love meant letting go of illusions of control; to let love take me wherever it may. And I must say that love has taken me some VERY interesting places.....but it has made me that much more grateful. The lessons I have learned (and will continue to learn), which will be passed on to my children, are invaluable.
