Part 2: "I Am Ready For Love: Why Are You Hiding From Me?"

I honestly never expected to meet anyone like Dominic.  First meeting him, I mistook his quiet confidence for arrogance, because I had never met (any guy) with such a controlled presence--and this piqued my interest in him as a person.  Coming out a very serious relationship, I fought myself to not fall into the trap of romantic attachment, but to get to know him as a person....to pursue a genuine friendship.  It didn't work though.  I had a very real attraction to this man.  Quite honestly, no matter what you may think, there is NOTHING you can do to control the nature of attraction.   I think that it helped that I was pursuing other male options, and was involved in other male romantic situations because it kind of kept my energy balanced out in a way.  I wasn't (initially) looking for Dominic to fill romantic voids, but after establishing a genuine friendship with him, I was smitten.   I was ready to cut all my other male "boo-skis" completely off!  I almost felt that I betrayed some code, because I wasn't supposed to like him!  I had forced myself not to "like" him!  Besides, he had too much female energy constantly being directed at him at work, and I wasn't interested in being a member of his fan club--at all!

Looking back in retrospect at the course of our relationship (which is FAR from perfect) I can only say that the road to commitment was one that was really unforeseen.  I enacted no intentional strategies to make him fall in love with me, nor he I.  Our relationship began with a genuine friendship with no expectations.....I didn't know WHAT to expect and that was the adventure that made finding a maturing love relationship with Dominic so exciting.  Finding love meant letting go of fear.  The fear of not knowing.  Finding love meant letting go of illusions of control; to let love take me wherever it may.  And I must say that love has taken me some VERY interesting places.....but it has made me that much more grateful.  The lessons I have learned (and will continue to learn), which will be passed on to my children, are invaluable.